and long suffering, and that is so amazing.

The song posted under my words is from Fernando Ortega, and goes with Psalm 139:18 They are beautiful together!

God had every reason to leave me the last few days, and I think I wanted Him to a few times, but He didn't, and today? I am exceedingly thankful for Him. I certainly didn't deserve His patience.

And to add to it all, I was so stressed about getting my house clean and catching up on schoolwork. I still have to catch up on a lot of stuff, but my instructors are being great about it for the most part.
I have become friends with one of them, and today? She came over to my house to help me get it straightened up. She had asked if I needed help with anything and I said no, then she asked "well what about your house? Can I come help you with that?" Well YAH! LOL Wasn't turning that one down! So now my house is nice and clean, and I will feel better about taking more time to do my homework over the next few days! It was SUCH a big help and to know she was doing it purely to be nice.
And it made me think that God not only didn't treat me like I deserved, he even saw to the littlest details that in the long run don't really matter, but really help in the moment. There's more, but I don't think I could fit all of what's happened in this post.
It's just amazing. My attitude and thoughts have been changing almost hour by hour, back and forth, and He didn't turn away in disgust no matter how vile my thoughts were or what I said to Him. THAT IS TRUE LOVE.
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If to Heaven’s heights I fly,
You are still beside me.
Or in death’s dark shadows lie,
You will stay close by me.
If I flee on morning wings,
Far across the gray sea;
Even there your hand will lead,
Your right hand will guide me.
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*Unus, sed leo*