You kids have a lot to discourage you. Your hope of a future is being sold out...your Christian heritage is daily exposed as a sham...what's your niche? what are you fit for?!
I had an evening walk/talk with 2 of my girls and basically told them, "Welcome to the world of misfits, Pilgrims! I'm 49 now, and still don't know what I want to be when I grow up!

You're no better than your mother, so walk the walk daily, bcz the rapture's nigh and this is all the time you have to be faithful with the little part you've been given."
Don't know if that helps or makes it worse for you! My girls laughed and hugged me. (((hugs)))